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mishiru's rants and raves

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MISHIRU

Name: Mishiru
DOB: 09.11.1987
Location: Philippines
Zodiac Sign: Virgo
Tagline: Bbasha!!

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February 17, 2008

duh!!!~~ i miss everyone!! i miss school, i miss my friends, i miss my usual routine on normal school days and i even miss even the silly things i see in school everyday. gossip-mongers on the school lobby, flirts hanging out everywhere and even geeks doing their usual busy life. hahaha! you just don't realize how important school is to someone who has been in school for 16 years...hahaha!! yeah...i counted it and it all summed up to 16 years...almost 17 since kindergarten up to the last school term i'm in. i often hate myself for being so sickly that's why i have to quit school to get some medical treatment somewhere outside the country. grrrr!! if only, i was healthier...i wouldn't be living my days so miserably like this. i feel so alone...left-out...totally pissed all the time! i don't even know if this is a normal feeling...a normal personality... i'm getting some disorder here i think. blah blah blah!!~ life...sucks! or so that's what i feel as of the moment. it sucks! it's unfair...unfair...unfair...biased...totally!! when i was growing up, i didn't wish for all of this to happen. i just want to live life normally...like before. whenever i wake up...i think about school, when i go to sleep, my last thoughts are of school. duh!! i can't even think normally now. i go so crazy...insane!! blah blah blah!!~~

huhuhu...i miss my friends...my very very good friends! i want to spend school days with them again, go to the park with them and eat pizza, study with them in the library even if that means spending the whole time talking about nonsense stuffs, arguing with them during case sharings or case presentations, spending sleepless nights with them, hang out with them in the school lobby or in the cafeteria, sharing the latest gossips with them, listening to their everyday rants and raves, and so so many good times with them. there is nothing i so want to do right now but wear my school uniform again and go to class! learn new stuffs...meet new people...make new memories that would surely last a lifetime.

sometimes i find it funny...how could i ever live without school? when i grow old of school, when i'm through with being a student, when i'm a professional...will i ever imagine myself that way? really funny! hahaha!! but yeah...i know i won't be in school forever...it's just that i love the simple way i live of being a student. it's what everyone wants anyway right? and i soooooo love my school! super!! i wouldn't leave it for anything in this world...not even a billion dollars! hahaha!! ^_^ if only i could go back to time, i would change the way my health goes...i would be healthier if that's what makes me stay in school. time machine, anyone? but then i realized...this disease is mine and i might as well live with it and get the best out of life.

the bottom line is that...i just miss school...terribly! *sniff sniff*...huhuhu...T_T

mishiru [ 4:48 AM ]